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Tuesday, 21 August 2007 I think I was a little too enthusiastic about my gym workout yesterday. I am a walking zombie with only impossible muscle pains to remind me that I'm still living. I'm supposed to think about an article for an advertorial we're making for a client and my brain's just not up to the task. It's a simple article about the key points of an event we're organizing--standard news article. And I'm too bangag to even start. Ergo, petiks.So I guess the fact that I'm still here means that I've finally decided to go with this company. I've already declined the offer from Grace and I'm beginning to feel that certain, er, suffocating feeling coming from the fact that THIS IS IT. Time to commit again. I am just, hmmm, terrified's too strong a word. Anxious. I've always been in denial about my commitment issues, even though it has always manifested itself in my life at one point or another. Whether it's with work or with my relationships. I tend to get a little bit--REALLY restless the minute I sense things are starting to become a little too serious. I tend to bail. Which is why I love taking spontaneous trips to nowhere and everywhere. I didn't realize until recently that I use traveling as an escape. Of course I love the perks--meeting new people, seeing new places, immersing myself in totally different cultures...but it's really mainly to get away from people and things out to complicate my simple enough existence. When really, I was the only one doing all the drama. :D So I hope things will change starting today. Time to start becoming more responsible. Hehe. And enough with the expectations--I tend to have ridiculous ones--because it's better to just go into something and discover whatever one day at a time. I suppose life will be more exciting that way, yes? And, er, this one's a stretch but I should really stop--LESSEN my being judgmental. SO everytime they hold, um, Bible Study here every Thursday, I should just accept that. I don't have to attend anyway. Gawd I've always had a thing against fundamentalists--mostly due to bad experiences when dealing with them--but I just have to deal with it. Waaaah. Last week I had to sit in because they were going to introduce me to the whole team and it turns out almost all the people here are Born Again Christians. I don't have anything against them but I honestly do not think everything that's written in the Bible is morally binding. It has answers, yes, but it doesn't have ALL the answers. You don't have to take it too literally. That is my opinion anyway. And, hellooo, it was written by MAN; therefore making it open to error and misinterpretation. Okay. Where did that outburst come from? Time to start working!!! Have a nice day!
posted by Anonymous @ 10:20 3 Comments:
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"Tolerance and patience" seems like the catchphrase for that sort of thing.
I know how you feel though. I don't like it when someone else's beliefs get forced on me.