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a l i z a r i n R E D the red light district |
Wednesday 19 December 2007 I am so dead. Haven't even shopped for a single christmas present yet! I'm meeting Aletski later in glorietta (I'm sooo glad she's back! I miss her sooobra) for dinner and I intend to atleast finish shopping for my manito in the office--someone whom I have never even met yet, by the way. I haven't ventured past our 15th floor office. There's still the 27th and apparently, kris kringle's office is up there.So. It also turns out I won't be able to go to my office Christmas party. It's my aunt and uncle's 25th wedding anniversary and the party starts the same time as the one here in the office. And I have to make a speech. Waaaah why do I always end up stuck making speeches in parties? I'm not really the most talkative person in the world here. Shyet. Anyway, I told my officemate I'd leave the gift with her. Oh well. I bet I'd come out looking like the world's biggest KJ. Yahoo! hehe what the heck. Spent the past few minutes browsing through my old blog. Apparently, I was also lagging behind on christmas shopping a year ago. And I wanted a mini cooper as much then as I do now. Sigh, dream car. I'd settle for a good SUV though. Something I can use to take spontaneous drives to wherever. I swear, maybe it's only right I don't have a car yet. I'd probably spend tons and tons of money on gas just to satisfy my spontaneous whims to drive to this or that place. Still as restless as ever. I've been in a confused state lately. As in sometimes I feel as if I do not know myself anymore. At the same time, I feel as if everything's working the way I want it to. But, well, let's face it. It's all facade. If I have to really face the truth right in the face, I'd be getting that much needed reality check. But I don't want to face reality yet. Maybe I will next week. But not right now. So I guess here I am again, procrastinating. Like usual. I don't like it but for now, it's what I feel like doing. It's a bad pattern but it's comfortable. Gaaaad. I do not want to think of the future yet. NOW muna. On that note, someone sent this via email and it fits my mood--Beginning today I will no longer worry about yesterday. It is in the past and the past will never change. Only I can change by choosing to do so. Beginning today I will no longer worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow will always be there, waiting for me to make the most of it. But I cannot make the most of tomorrow without first making the most of today. So there. Making the most of TODAY for now. I'll deal with reality eventually. :)
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